Saturday, October 3, 2015
I hope this letter finds you doing find because lately you've been on my mind. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever find you again but sometimes I can't seem to care anymore. The first time I saw you I was 16. That might have been your twin lust, but still it could have been you. Either way I'm not sure anymore. This is the beginning of the letter and I already sound like I'm accusing you. I'm sorry.
You sure did a dirty, dirty thing. I was fine without you, just moseying along. You came and took three years of my time. I never knew I could do so much stupid and wonderful things until I met you. You thought me loyalty, pain, joy, sadness, hate and so many other things, but most importantly you thought me courage. I almost could kiss you and slap you at the same time.
After those three years, I had to learn how to live without you. I even wondered what I did wrong to cause you to leave. But I understand now that I couldn't make you stay where you weren't meant to be. I was forcing you. Trying to change you. Did that hurt you? You could have told me. At least that is what I believe. Maybe that wasn't even the problem and I am just here, overthinking things. But I take this time apart as a growth process. A process to see if I can make it alone. The Funny thing is, it was way easier when I was 16, but I think I can do it now. Took me 5 long years, but yeah, I can make it now. When you join one thing with another it becomes one. There is then not one without the other and when you decided to leave I felt cut in half. Can you imagine me, before you? Probably like a fondling ay?
I've had some come cloaked as you, telling me to take another chance on you, that you've changed, but they don't understand. When I saw you back then, when we were together I understood how you thought, how you grew and what I am seeing now is not you. So no, I'm not going to settle for impostors. I want you to meet me at my door. Probably with an identity card. You know where I live.
I'm picky, I'm picky, I'm picky and that's because I don't want to make a mistake in thinking I've found you again, so don't leave that card at home.
I wish you had a picture so I can identify you when I see you again. It has been so long. You've probably transformed into Love 2.0. That would sure be some Sci-fi type crap. Is your hair long, black and silky or is it cropped close to your head? Do you wear a man bun? How tall are you now anyone? I don't even know those simple things. Are you dark, light or (gasp) white? That would be such a shock to me but hey I'm trying not to be too picky anymore.
Until next time.
Your past and future lover,
Friday, October 2, 2015
For those that know me, you know that I love to experiment in the kitchen. For those that don't, then you will soon learn.
I call this one my 'Why You Gotta Stress' winter stew. Why? Because, it was cold as all get out, in Canada.
How it all started? (You may be asking me) At first this was a beef stew that I put with rice. I then added water the next day and made it into soup. Next thing I knew, it was a week later and I tried it again. This time I started it as a soup, but with what I had on hand, which was Swedish MEATBALLS!
Best of all, this is a ONE POT MEAL!!
There are two versions of this stew/soup, but this is the meatball version. To make the stew beef version just add stewed beef that has been browned before adding to the pot.
2 canned stewed tomatoes 795ml (For those that know how to make it. Power to you!!. I tried and it tasted like plain,watered tomatoes)
1/2 box Gemilli pasta or any type of short pasta 500g (wheat pasta works fine also)
1/2 jar of Classico Roasted Portobello Mushroom 650ml
Salt and pepper to taste (A lot of people are taking salt out of their diets, so add seasoning a little at a time and taste, taste, taste) Please don't over season. I also add a little garlic.
10 palm sized Meatballs (you can cheat with store bought Italian meatballs)
1 carrot (chopped, diced, whichever)
1/4 head of Cabbage (chopped)
1 cup of Spinach
3 cans of Dark Red Kidney Beans 15.5 oz (I love it in this soup but you can just add one or two cans. Drained)
2 cup of water
All ingredients can be added at the same time in the beginning, excluding pasta and spinach. Pasta and spinach should be added the last 10-15 minutes of cooking time.
Bring pot to a boil and then let simmer on low for 45mins-1hour.
When using stewed beef I let simmer for 1hour 30mins-1hour 45mins
Recipe by Dede